innerview

I had my interview yesterday. I think it went pretty well - in fact I'm feeling pretty confident.

I also think I made an arse of myself.

They seemed pretty impressed with what I can do, but my ability to articulate that left a lot to be desired, from my perspective anyway. This is why I got into publishing.

If I could talk good I would probably be working in PR.

moving

i'm thinking about moving.

moving house. moving cities. moving countries.

i have a job interview next week, so at the very least i might be moving to a new office soon. might.

it's a two-hour interview. one hour face-to-face, one hour written task. i guess the eight pages of writing that comprised my application wasn't enough.

is it the wrong attitude to have to not care if i get it? will they be able to tell?

breaking up is hard to do

how do you let go of something you have invested so much time and love and energy into? how do you conclude that this thing will never be what you worked so hard to make it?

i know sometimes it's better to cut your losses, but this can be so hard when for so long you thought it could work out. for a long time i was truly convinced it would be a success, take off and fly to the moon. late nights and cat fights weren't a deterrent because i believed.

this faith, this desire to really make it real, has passed out from exhaustion.